If anyone is out there and has seen this, thanks for taking a look. It's been about a week or so, My duaghter's attitude took a nosedive recently as to be suspended from school...she was in a hitting spree and it came to a head the friday before. She is in a bully program at her school and it breaks my heart to have this happen to her. Her actions make her into a bully, yes, but she isn't in it for out-right control and intimidation like other bullies (like when I was in school). I scheduled appointments with her therapist and have been on the phone with the local kids therapy center, Family Service and Guidance Center, FSGC for short (why do things have to have such a long name?) This is a part of the reason that I have been so bummed out lately. My house is a wreck; to the point that if I just brought in a couple boxes, threw stuff in it and tossed it, I wouldn't care or probably need it. Once I get home at 5 or 6 pm, it's all I can do to just fix a quick meal for her and I just veg in front of the TV. But, I guess, ENOUGH COMPLAINING!!! I am a full time worker at a place I love to be...the Library--Where else?!? and I am a full time mom to an all around loving, sweet, polite, helpful (in her mind mostly ;) ) anxious, moody, sometimes angry ADHD girl who wants to do good and just physically, emotionally, behaviorily can't. *Sigh....* I believe that this is the time to get back to basics...I used to get up every morning (for a stint of time) and pray for her and her day and my day to to have an army of angels surround us and protect us and I normally prayed to God that He needed to put the strongest chain around my ankle so I wouldn't stray from Him, knowing though, that He would NEVER do that because He gave us free will. I believe that with this free will, we learn that we get ourselves in so much trouble away from Him that we need to humble ourselves and ask for His help and guidance and to trust that he is in control and we can put our problems/corcerns/requests at his feet and they will be answered in time (His time). So all I have to do is ask...so why don't I? I know, from the scriptures, that if I ask it, and according to God's will, it will be done as in
Matthew 6:32-34
New King James Version (NKJV)
32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
From Biblegateway.com
And I also know that he will comfort me. My favorite verse for this is in
4 Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice!
5 Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Also from BGW
So I guess that is what I am going to have to do. Maybe the Holy Spirit in me is convicting me on my attitude towards God and prayer and Maybe if I do this again, things might be a little more peaceful.
This verse is from my TUMI (Topeka Urban Ministry Institue) class at my church Central Park Christian, I think that this sums up my whole dilemna:
From Biblegateway.com
And I also know that he will comfort me. My favorite verse for this is in
Philippians 4:4-7
New King James Version (NKJV)
5 Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Also from BGW
So I guess that is what I am going to have to do. Maybe the Holy Spirit in me is convicting me on my attitude towards God and prayer and Maybe if I do this again, things might be a little more peaceful.
This verse is from my TUMI (Topeka Urban Ministry Institue) class at my church Central Park Christian, I think that this sums up my whole dilemna:
Psalm 51:3-5
New King James Version (NKJV)
3 For I acknowledge my transgressions,
And my sin is always before me.
4 Against You, You only, have I sinned,
And done this evil in Your sight—
That You may be found just when You speak,[a]
And blameless when You judge.
And my sin is always before me.
4 Against You, You only, have I sinned,
And done this evil in Your sight—
That You may be found just when You speak,[a]
And blameless when You judge.
I have to swallow my pride that I can do EVERYTHING and present myself to God in humbleness, asking for wisdom and patience and other things I need to get through this storm. Thanks for reading!
